Today I had one of the biggest trials of my life so far (I say one of…I’ve been very blessed to fortunately not have had to experience too many hard trials.) But today was hard. All I can say is I’m glad it’s Friday. Very quickly I’ll explain, I’ve been interviewing for a position I REALLY wanted, I have never wanted a job like I did this one. It was too good to be true, obviously. It was at a large corporate office about 10 minutes away from my house and the position (pretty much a dream position) is right up my ally and would allow me to use my degree! I had a phone interview and 3 in person interviews and I felt like I had it in the bag. The interviews went great (except for the phone interview, but does anyone ever think their phone interview goes well?) After a three week process I found out today that I didn’t get the job. I felt like my whole world came crashing down. I had my hopes really high and felt like this was what I went to college for and this would steer me in the direction I wanted my career to go. I felt like I had a purpose again.

It was a good experience and I’m grateful for the opportunity I had to even get an interview, but I am pretty bummed to say the least.

I know things always work out and something better always comes along, but I’m having a hard time seeing that…I guess I’ll find out someday.

I’m so grateful for the support of my wonderful family and friends who have helped me through today. (Work wasn’t super productive today because I had to keep running to the bathroom to let out a few good cries.) I’m especially grateful for my loving, caring, supportive and understanding husband. He knows how much I wanted this and I know his heart hurts for me too.