Weight Gain: I’ve started to gain some weight, I think it’s been about 6-7 pounds, we’ll find out at my next appointment in a week and a half.
Maternity Clothes: I finally bought a belly band from Target and it is amazing! I have so many clothes I can wear now because of it. I think it’s something I’ll wear for the rest of my life, especially thanksgiving! I mean come on, I can leave my pants unbuttoned and no one knows!
Sleep: One night this week I was screaming at the top of my lungs in my sleep and freaked Mark out. I think it was a combination for being exhausted after spending a whole day in the city with my college roommate Glenna and her husband Ioua, and I’ve been having nightmares…sorry Mark!
Best Moment This Week: Easily it was finding out our baby is a BOY! I’ve felt like it was a boy the whole time, maybe because I’ve been craving savory salty foods when I usually like sweets or maybe it was my first mothers intuition! Whatever it was, we are so excited! I think Mark was in shock. It was so incredible and amazing seeing our baby on the ultrasound. He was such a wiggle worm and did not stop moving the entire time, perhaps the reason I’m so sick all the time? The tech was having a hard time getting good clear pictures. I think we are going to have a very active boy on our hands!
Weird Pregnancy Moment: The bump literally grew over night. One morning I woke up and Mark looked at my stomach and said “woah! You really look pregnant!”
Movement: I have been feeling the baby move for about a week and a half now. It is the weirdest thing. It’s still pretty subtle and feels like ripples in my stomach. But it is starting to feel much more real now that I can feel him moving around. I’m not going to lie though, it kind of weirds me out and I feel like its an alien sometimes.
Food Cravings: Mexican food
What I’m Looking Forward To: To start decorating baby boys’ room and really start thinking of names now that we only have one gender to think of.
We recently went to our first Giants game of the season! There’s something about that gorgeous park and the smell of garlic fries while wearing our matching shirts that brings me so much happiness. Baseball always signifies the beginning of spring and always makes me itch for a beautiful day game.
We had planned to go with our friends the Morgans but unfortunately he got really sick and they couldn’t come. Fortunately, the Carbines are always up for an adventure and were able to come with us.
On the way from Bart to the ballpark we stopped at this gourmet grilled cheese restaurant that I’ve been dying to go to. It’s called The American Grilled Cheese Kitchen and it was amazing! Mark got the Mac n cheese grilled cheese (yes, the grilled cheese had Mac n cheese inside!) and I got the Moscone which had mozzarella, roasted tomatoes, and lavender basil pesto…so yummy! I would highly recommend it and will be going back.
Weight Gain: No weight gain yet probably because I’ve been really sick this past week with a bad cold so I’ve had no appetite and its been a struggle to eat. But Mark makes sure I eat something for the baby 🙂 Already a good dad.
Maternity Clothes: Not yet but I do need to get a belly band, my pants are uncomfortable and it’s embarrassing to unbutton them in public, but not too embarrassing that I don’t do it!
Sleep: I’m uncomfortable and still trying to get use to not sleeping on my stomach and squishing the baby. In between coughing and blowing my nose all night I’ve managed to get some sleep.
Best Moment This Week: Mark and I went to the store on Saturday to get me some medicine and when we parked I swung open my door and threw up in the Walmart parking lot (classy). It was the first time I’ve thrown up in public and I was so embarrassed but so sick that I also didn’t really care. The best moment was some guy came up to us and said he was a medic and asked if I needed help. While it was embarrassing, it was nice to have a complete stranger be so sincere and be a Good Samaritan (even if it is his duty since he’s a medic.) Its nice to see there are still nice people out there.
Weird Pregnancy Moment: I’m not sure I can blame it all on pregnancy, but I sneezed so hard it made me pee my pants a little, just a couple of drops. I thought it was so funny and was dying laughing and Mark was totally grossed out. Luckily we were at home.
Movement: Nothing yet but dr said probably this week!
Food Cravings: Since I was sick this week I didn’t really have any cravings except fried rice one night. I have been craving Taco Bell nacho supreme for the past 4 months though! I can’t get enough of the salty chips and nacho cheese!
What I’m Looking Forward To: I’m really looking forward to feeling the baby move and finding out the gender in two weeks! I feel like it will feel more real then.
Right now I’m only 7 weeks along and feel sort of lame writing this because obviously I’m not going to post it right now but I want to write it down so I I remember. Actually I’m hoping to forget because I’ve been sooo sick! I have a weak stomach so I was assuming that I would have some morning sickness but I wasn’t prepared for morning sickness ALL. DAY. LONG! The best way to describe it is that it feels like im coming down with the flu, weak and stomach pains from the nausea. I had to quit my job this week because I can barely get out of bed. I was so disappointed and had so many mixed emotions. I was disappointed in myself and feared that Mark would be disappointed in me. I just got this job with Safeway corporate that I really wanted. I tried my best to tough it out but when all you can focus on the entire day is “don’t throw up,” I clearly new it wasn’t going to work out. I also knew it wouldn’t work out because I was supposed to train for three months and then i would have to find a department with an opening and apply for that spot, and by that time I would only have realistically 3 months to actually work…it felt like a waste of my time and theirs. I feel so incredibly lucky and blessed that I am able to not work right now and take care of myself. They were so great though and said that if I start feeling better to give them a call and they can help me find something until this baby comes. Anyways it looks like it was the right decision because each day seems to get worse. I’ve been throwing up at least once a day now and rarely feel any relief from the severe nausea all day. It seems to come in waves about every two hours until I go to sleep at night. I’m so ready to be done with this stage, even though I know that’s the worst outlook but this is not fun (read in a whiny voice, of course). Marks been soo great to me, trying to find foods that don’t sound completely repulsive to me and bringing more crackers and Gatorade. He cleans the house and does all the dishes not ever once acknowledging how pathetic I am. I’ve been living on the couch the past three days, feeling very accomplished for getting up and opening the sliding glass door so Leo can go bask in the sun on our patio, at least one of us is getting out of the house! And today my big accomplishment was getting in the shower after I threw up, I washed my hair and even shaved my armpits!
I’m anxious for my first Dr appointment next week. All I can hope for is a healthy kidney bean sized baby…and that the doc can give me something to help me feel less nauseous, or at the very least knock me out! (Just kidding…sort of…)
On Friday february 8 our lives were flipped upside down.
I was a few days late on my period and for some reason new I was pregnant. I didn’t want to take a pregnancy test though because I started my new job with Safeway corporate the coming Monday. I figured ignorance was bliss. I didn’t want to go into my first day knowing my time was very limited.
that day at work I felt like what I thought were hunger pains all day. That night we met up with my cousin Natasha and her husband Wes in San francisco for dinner. On the way to dinner Wes asked me something like “no baby in there yet?” Which caught me off guard because in the back of my mind I knew there was a chance but no one ever really asks me if I’m pregnant or what my plans are. (I’ve felt so lucky that people aren’t always asking me when we are going to start trying, I guess everyone just knew we weren’t ready the past three years.) when we got home from dinner mark told me I should take a pregnancy test, which I did against my better judgement. Within literally seconds two bright lines appeared, I was in shock that it showed up so fast, so much for waiting 5 minutes! I didnt believe it because it showed so fast so I took another one. Again, within seconds two pink lines appeared showing positive. I was happy, excited, shocked and devistated all at the same time. What timing! After two years of applying I finally get a job with a company I really wanted to work for and get to use my degree. I was a little terrified to go tell mark, who was in the living room watching the olympics, because I didn’t want to disappoint him. I knew he was really excited for my new job. I was frozen. All I could do was sit on the lid of the toilet with a shocked look on my face. mark walked in a few minutes later with a very confused look on his face. Then he saw the pregnancy tests on the counter and a big smile covered his face. I was even more shocked! He did a little nervous giggle and asked if I was pregnant because he didn’t understand the tests. I told him yes and started to cry. He was so sweet and I could tell he was excited. He hugged me and told me it would all work out. I saw him turn his head and wipe a tear, although he doesn’t know I saw 🙂 I knew that everything was going to be ok and that he wasn’t upset or disappointed. I think at that moment he was more excited than I was. Now don’t get me wrong, I was so excited, I’ve always known I wanted to be a mom but it just seemed like horrible timing. I wanted one or the other, not a new job and a baby at the same time…
That weekend I was wiped out! I don’t know if it was my mind playing tricks on me but after taking that pregnancy test I started to notice I was pregnant. My boobs were ginormous and I was exhausted and felt weak. Nothing sounded appetizing but thinking about food didn’t make me nauseous. I pretty much slept all weekend and when I woke up I felt like I could have kept sleeping.
Monday morning rolled around and my alarm went off at 6:30. I showered and started getting ready and also started to feel sick. Mornings are rough but luckily I haven’t thrown up yet but it’s still early…so knock on wood. But the weird thing is that I’ve been feeling sick all day long…I feel sick at work and all evening after work. Hopefully this exhausted feeling wears off soon and morning sickness continues to be nice to me.
It’s still hard to grasp that I’m pregnant but it’s so exciting. It’s so hard for both me and Mark to not tell anyone, but it’s a fun secret to share together right now!