On Friday february 8 our lives were flipped upside down.
I was a few days late on my period and for some reason new I was pregnant. I didn’t want to take a pregnancy test though because I started my new job with Safeway corporate the coming Monday. I figured ignorance was bliss. I didn’t want to go into my first day knowing my time was very limited.
that day at work I felt like what I thought were hunger pains all day. That night we met up with my cousin Natasha and her husband Wes in San francisco for dinner. On the way to dinner Wes asked me something like “no baby in there yet?” Which caught me off guard because in the back of my mind I knew there was a chance but no one ever really asks me if I’m pregnant or what my plans are. (I’ve felt so lucky that people aren’t always asking me when we are going to start trying, I guess everyone just knew we weren’t ready the past three years.) when we got home from dinner mark told me I should take a pregnancy test, which I did against my better judgement. Within literally seconds two bright lines appeared, I was in shock that it showed up so fast, so much for waiting 5 minutes! I didnt believe it because it showed so fast so I took another one. Again, within seconds two pink lines appeared showing positive. I was happy, excited, shocked and devistated all at the same time. What timing! After two years of applying I finally get a job with a company I really wanted to work for and get to use my degree. I was a little terrified to go tell mark, who was in the living room watching the olympics, because I didn’t want to disappoint him. I knew he was really excited for my new job. I was frozen. All I could do was sit on the lid of the toilet with a shocked look on my face. mark walked in a few minutes later with a very confused look on his face. Then he saw the pregnancy tests on the counter and a big smile covered his face. I was even more shocked! He did a little nervous giggle and asked if I was pregnant because he didn’t understand the tests. I told him yes and started to cry. He was so sweet and I could tell he was excited. He hugged me and told me it would all work out. I saw him turn his head and wipe a tear, although he doesn’t know I saw 🙂 I knew that everything was going to be ok and that he wasn’t upset or disappointed. I think at that moment he was more excited than I was. Now don’t get me wrong, I was so excited, I’ve always known I wanted to be a mom but it just seemed like horrible timing. I wanted one or the other, not a new job and a baby at the same time…
That weekend I was wiped out! I don’t know if it was my mind playing tricks on me but after taking that pregnancy test I started to notice I was pregnant. My boobs were ginormous and I was exhausted and felt weak. Nothing sounded appetizing but thinking about food didn’t make me nauseous. I pretty much slept all weekend and when I woke up I felt like I could have kept sleeping.
Monday morning rolled around and my alarm went off at 6:30. I showered and started getting ready and also started to feel sick. Mornings are rough but luckily I haven’t thrown up yet but it’s still early…so knock on wood. But the weird thing is that I’ve been feeling sick all day long…I feel sick at work and all evening after work. Hopefully this exhausted feeling wears off soon and morning sickness continues to be nice to me.
It’s still hard to grasp that I’m pregnant but it’s so exciting. It’s so hard for both me and Mark to not tell anyone, but it’s a fun secret to share together right now!