A bad mom day

It’s only noon and I have already thought to myself more than once that today is a “bad day.”

Our cat woke up Mason this morning before he was ready to get up, so he woke up a little grumpy and I did as well. Oh well.

A couple of hours later I go to put mason down for a nap in his crib which is always a struggle. He fussed for 10-15 minutes but then fell asleep! Awesome! I jumped in the shower (but didn’t wash my hair), got out, and decided to put on workout clothes because today I was going to do some workouts in my living room while the baby napped! As soon as I got dressed Madon woke up. He only slept for 30 minutes, ugh come on! So I pick him up out of his crib and rock him a little and he falls back to sleep no problem. I lay him back down and head for the door and he is wide awake crying! I repeat this cycle 3 more times (each time letting him cry for 5-10 minutes) until I decide it’s no use.

So out to the living room we go. I turn on the tv and put Mason in his swing and do a few workouts until Mason decides he’s done in the swing. At this point he’s super tired and rubbing his eyes. So I feed him and try to lay him down on my bed. Repeat the process from earlier of trying to get him to nap: Unsuccessful. The whole time I’m getting more frustrated because I can’t get my baby to take a nap and I have things I want to do! I already feel like a failure of a wife constantly because I rarely have a full, thoughtout dinner prepared when Mark gets home from work. The house is always a mess. (Mark spent his entire Saturday deep cleaning the house, which I was extremely grateful for but felt bad because I should be doing that, not him.)

But then Mason fell asleep on my shoulder. At first I was annoyed because that’s the only place he will nap unless we go on a long car ride. I thought about trying to lay him down again until a feeling came over me that I needed to just sit down and enjoy the moment. My workout could wait (although my squishy body would disagree), the house work could be done later and Mark will still love me when he gets home despite all the things I didn’t get done. Because he knows I love our baby more than all those other things.

I hope someday I will be able to get Mason to be a better napper but today I will hold him while he sleeps on my shoulder.

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Raising a boy

I never thought much about what you teach boys vs. girls until my son came along and now I stress over it too often. I don’t have any brothers but I do have a fantastic husband who has opened my eyes as to what makes a man.

Our society is so confused. It seems to put so much emphasis on women being treated as equals that it has belittled boys and men. Now don’t get me wrong, I believe women should get their education and be paid as much as male coworkers, I have witnessed the opposite in my own life. But somehow in our fight to be treated equally we have downplayed the role of men in our homes and society. ย Now having a son of my own, there are so many things I want him to learn that society no longer teaches or views as normal.

For instance, I want him to be a gentleman. I want him to always open doors for ladies. But the world often sees this as men treating women as incapable. I want him to see and know that women are and can be strong but should be treated delicately and respectfully. I want him to stand up for what’s right when it’s not popular. I want him to protect those that are smaller than him or who can’t stand up for themselves. I want him to be confident but not cocky. I want him to stand up for himself and not let others tear him down or walk all over him, but at the same time I want him to be sweet and gentle, yet brave and tough. He better never lay a finger on a woman but also never allow a woman to lay a hand on him.

As I write this I feel so overwhelmed with my responsibility as a mother of a boy. His heart is so sweet and pure, why do we as a society mess these perfect souls up so much?!

Luckily for me, he has some wonderful examples to watch and learn from; his father, his uncles, his grandfathers and his fathers’ friends.

I’m so grateful to be the mother of a boy and learn from him. I know it will be challenging teaching him things that are often viewed as “old fashioned” when the world is teaching him other things but I’m happy to add one more gentleman to the world!

3 Months

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Every day with our sweet babe seems to be better than the last, if that’s even possible! Just this morning Mark told me that this is his favorite stage so far because Mason can hold his head up and his neck is strong enough to hold him in different positions like airplane, which lets him be more playful. I’m also loving this stage. Mason’s started giving us little giggles and it makes me heart feel like it’s going to burst! Our favorite thing is getting Mason out of his crib in the morning. He gets so excited to see us and gives us the biggest smiles. Then we unwrap him from his swaddle and he stretches and pulls his legs up and we laugh because it’s so cute and funny! Oh the simple joys of parenthood ๐Ÿ˜‰

Loves:

Mason loves having his diaper changed. I’ve never seen a happier baby than when he’s getting a fresh diaper. He smiles the whole time, it’s pretty funny. Sometimes if he’s fussy Mark will go lay him on his changing pad and Mason will stop fussing, Weird, right?

He loves looking at his board books, when he’s in the mood for it.

Mason always loves watching tv, it’s bad! He likes watching basketball games with dad. He’s pretty entertained by Doc McStuffins and Daniel the Tiger. He got a couple Baby Einstein movies from his Aunt Lauren and Uncle Dave for Christmas and I’m excited to turn those on for him so I can shower ๐Ÿ™‚

He finally likes going on walks now that he can sit in the stroller and not have to be in his car seat on the stroller.

He loves his sound soother. It can usually calm him down in a matter of minutes.

He loves to sit up and thinks he’s big enough to sit up all the time. When I lay him down he tries to push himself up on his elbows. This darn baby is trying to grow up too fast!

He loves to hold his own hands and ours!

He kills us with his expressions. He really knows how to work the eyebrows!

He has definitely found his voice and always wants to make sure we hear him. He loves to yell and it always sounds like “Ay!” Mark & I joke that he’s yelling at us to come get him out of his crib.

One of my favorite things is when Mason gets tired and is ready for a nap he nestles his face under my chin and snuggles in so tight. It’s the best! Even if he sometimes wipes boogers on my neck ๐Ÿ™‚

Mason’s favorite song is “Uptown Funk” by Mark Ronson ft. Bruno Mars. He loves to dance with me to it and loves watching other people dance to it. He giggles every time. It’s so funny!

Hates:

The car seat…and subsequently, the car. He will be all smiles while we put him in the car seat and then as soon as he’s buckled all hell breaks loose.

This past month we had our first really big outing with Mason. I took him to the Disney Family Museum in the Presidio in San Francisco with my family. I was a little nervous about the long car ride and how he would do in a museum but it went great! He slept in my sollybaby wrap almost the whole time! And he slept both ways in the car. He’s still such an easy going baby.

Mark & I went on our first big date since having Mason. My grandma gave Mark tickets to a Warriors basketball game so he took me with him! I was pretty stressed about going just because it was 4-5 hours and at night, which meant he would have to take a bottle and be put to bed… My mom and sister Taylor were so awesome and watched him for us. He didn’t take the bottle very well and he didn’t go to sleep very well…he woke up a little before we got home, which is unusual, he usually doesn’t wake up once he goes to bed. But it was fine, he was fine and my mom still loves him ๐Ÿ™‚ We had a great time at the game! It was white out night and we got free t-shirts! And the game was so exciting and the Warriors won! I’m very grateful that we get to live close to our families right now and have so much help and Mason is surrounded by so much love.

This is what a conversation with Mason looks like (except with more eyebrow action, but it’s hard to capture in pictures):

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Laziest pacifier sucker ever!
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Mason’s happy place: the changing pad
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Always holding his hands

Mason’s 1st Christmas

Obviously Mason is too young to understand what Christmas or even presents are this year, but having a baby in the house made Christmas so magical. I can’t even imagine how much fun it will be next year when he can tear wrapping paper off presents and play with toys and then his excitement and understanding in the following years.

We had a great time with both of our families (we really hit the jackpot in the family department.) Both are so understanding of our need and desire to spend time with both families and it’s really nice that we never feel any pressure from anyone. We spent Christmas Eve at my parents house and this year when we read the Nativity story from the Bible, we had a real baby boy to play Jesus! That was a first for my family! Then my sisters & Mason opened pjs and Mark & I opened the game Lagretto (our new tradition for married couples is games instead of pjs.) Then my mom read a Christmas book and we all went to look at Christmas lights.

Christmas morning we went over to my parents house bright and early to open gifts and Skype with Rachel, who comes home from her mission in Spain in about 3 weeks! Then we went to Mark’s parents’ house and opened more gifts and had a very nice Christmas dinner.

We were very spoiled by our families, especially Mason ๐Ÿ˜‰ I’m writing this post on my new Chromebook that Mark & my parents gave me for Christmas! I no longer have to wait for Mark to get home from work to borrow his computer!! We had a wonderful Christmas and are so grateful for our families and especially grateful for how much our families love our baby Mason. *Side note-all our darling nieces call Mason ‘Baby Mason’ it’s so cute. He will probably 10 years old and they will still call him Baby Mason, it has a nice ring to it ๐Ÿ™‚

This Christmas I was able to understand Mary and Christ a little deeper because of the love I have for my son. He has taught me what Christ-like love is. I am so grateful for my Savior and for the comfort, love and understanding. ย I hope you all had a very merryย Christmas!

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Mark gave me this beautiful bar necklace that has Mason’s birth date on it
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Grandma reading Mason a Christmas book ๐Ÿ™‚

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